I'm really quite tired...as I should be, it's 3:56am.

Soon I'll be going to sleep and then I'll be content. Tomorrow/today will be busy, so really I should have gone to sleep a few hours ago.

12:00 - Lunch at my grandparents' with some family and the girl that they'll be watching for a while
2:00 - Photo taking at Krug (ugh! Krug!)
6:00 - Wedding reception

For the above photo: I downloaded some new textures the other day and I'm trying them out. I think I enjoy the one I put with that photo. It's subtle and I must say, I enjoy the burned edges.
And there's another! Yay, photos!

Okay, this is getting ridiculous. Goodnight.

Look Alive

So, here's the thing: I really like this song.

It's called "Look Alive" and it's by Incubus. (I enjoy Incubus.)
"The hardest thing is rendering a moment moving too fast to endure"
That's my favorite line.

The thing about Incubus/Brandon Boyd is that I just like the way things are worded. Brandon has written two books: "White Fluffy Clouds" and "From the Murks of a Sultry Abyss." In them he has random writings, poems, lyrics, drawings, photos, etc. I like the layout and look of the books a lot. I like to read the writings, but I generally strongly disagree with what he's saying, or I completely just don't understand it. Let's face it, I'm not a metaphor understanding girl. I just don't get it.

Words are not my thing.

But, I read and enjoy simply because of the structure and flow.

I don't want to work tomorrow...it just might be the longest 6 hours of my life! Yay!

Also, Saturday might be a pleasantly busy day. We're having lunch at my grandma's at noon. Then at 2 I'm going to Krug Park to take some pictures of Katie's cousin. Then at 6 Miles and I will be going to a wedding reception at Stony Creek.
Sunday I'm not working, of course.
Monday I'm working 7:45-1 then meeting Katie and her house. We're going to take her senior pictures! That should be fun. Miles has a volleyball game at 5:30, and I assume I'll be able to attend as Katie has to work at 6 that evening.

I'm excited to take pictures!

Oh! And I talked to my momma today about my grandparents' farm. She said the barn isn't standing but the house is and is in bad shape. I guess my grandma has wanted to make a trip up there and my mom wants to also. So, hopefully we can make that happen.

The End

I really wish Kmart didn't want to hang out so much.

I don't like working so much. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have a constant urge to take/edit photos. I don't know, but either way, I don't like it. Currently, I am working on a project of sorts there, though, so that makes it a little less painful. I'm thinking of telling Wanda I can't work Saturdays.
Here's my thinking:
Jay and Jalisa can't work days, as they're still in high school. Maggie doesn't like closing. Lauren doesn't like opening. Basically, I figure there are enough people to cover the weekends up there (I never work on Sundays...it's the Lord's day!). I don't think they need me for 5 days of the week and a weekend also! And, (the main reason I'd like this) I'd always have a day that I would be free to take someone's pictures. It's so hard to plan a day to do pictures when I don't know if I'll be free.

I think I'll do it.

I feel like all I have to talk about is work. Like today I had to go in 2 hours early.
Umm...anyway...let's see...is there anything else?

I often wish I could just write things. Not anything important, necessarily. I think I would like to be a good writer...but I don't want to write much. Kind of how I always wanted to be good at drawing but I never wanted to practice, and I don't even really like drawing all that much. Photography is the only thing I ever felt the need to keep doing and try to progress at. I guess that makes sense, but I don't know.

I'm getting my hair cut at noon today (tomorrow, Tuesday). I look forward to not having split ends for about a month. That'll be cool. But, once I cut it I'll be sad that I won't have long hair any longer...until it grows back. I really hate the actual hair cutting process. It's so awkward. I mean, I really don't have anything to talk about when I'm sitting there. But there's always the, "So, do you still work at Kmart?" question. Then the, "How's married life?"...to which I always give the same answer ("It's good...it doesn't really feel any different, which is strange since a lot changed.") And don't forget the, "Have you found another job yet?"..."Oh, have you been looking for one?" No, I'm going to be at Kmart until the rapture (oh, I hope not!).

I really am itching for a chance to go out and take pictures. I don't really know what I want to take pictures of. I just want to go. I want to take my camera, my lenses, my monopod thingy, my flash and GO. But, I don't get many chances to do that. I will one of these days...maybe...hopefully.

I want to sleep soon. I think I'll play some Scramble, listen to a few more Incubus songs, then get ready and go to bed. It'll be lovely! G'night!

It's Saturday...already?

This week has smashed together.
Yesterday was Trenda's funeral. I met Lauren, Jalisa and Sarah at Kmart then we headed over there together. Along with quite a few other Kmart people we stood around for probably 20 minutes. Everyone else apparently got the message to go to the funeral home first. Not us! We all met at the cemetery. It was short after they all got there.
Then I worked 3-10:15. Today I worked 7:45-1. I was super tired the whole time. Steve showed me how the do test scans, which is what Trenda was always working on. They're easy and I love them because I simply love busy work.

Tonight we're going to World's of Fun...eventually. After I got home today I watched an episode of NCIS, because that's what I do. Then I ate lunch, then took a nap. It was only a mediocre nap as it just wasn't long enough. I kept hitting the snooze button on my phone. It goes off every 9 minutes, which I'll never understand. Then my mom text me and said they're cooking out tonight. Anyway, back to my main point. Miles just got in the shower and I'm cooking some tater tots. We're going to eat those and hot dogs before we go.

I have tomorrow off - because it's Sunday. I'll sleep in, but then I'll regret it because I have to wake up at 6 on Monday. I was supposed to have Monday off, but Jalisa called in for Saturday (after already being scheduled, that is a pet peeve of mine) so Maggie moved to Saturday and I'm taking Monday. Well, actually Lauren and I are splitting Monday. I'm working til noon and she'll work til 5. I have Saturday off because Stacy from the radio station is getting married so Miles and I are attending at least the reception.

Then I'm working Tuesday 5-10:15, Wednesday 4-10:15, Thursday 2-6, and Friday 12-6. I've been getting way too many hours lately. Wanda said they're going to need someone else at service because Jalisa wants off too much. They're bringing Lauren up but she doesn't want to open. I don't know what they'll do. Natasha is my next guess, but she doesn't want up there. She won't even let me show her how to do a return so she could cover breaks.

Then Aimee's birthday is the 8th. I'm actually very excited for it because I really want to give her her gifts. I bought her a purse from Kmart (it was on clearance for $5, then I got my discount on top of it...I bought myself one, too), then I decorated a box for her. I'm going to put the box in the purse, then a Whatchamacallit, Hazel's gift card, a couple bookmarks then possibly something else, in her box. I like other peoples' birthdays.

The 11th and 12th Miles and I are going to Sioux Falls, South Dakota. It's a birthday present to me. I always tell him I want to go on a picnic, so we're going to Falls Park...on a picnic. It's cute, really. I'm going to take a bunch of pictures, I'm sure. Yay!


And now the tater tots are done! It's time to eat, get ready, then leave. OFF TO FUNS OF WORLD!

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I'm really very tired. I do think I'll be going to bed soon.

Today (Monday) Wanda called me around noon. She left me a message asking if I could come into work early. She didn't say why, so I called back. She said that Trenda had shot herself and it wasn't looking good, she sounded super upset. So, I went into work at 3 and picked up 2 more days this week. Before Maggie left she said that they had to revive Trenda 3 times and she probably wouldn't make it.
Maggie and Helena were both trying to figure out why she would have done this. They're reasons don't stray too far from Kmart. Saying, "Well, I know she really didn't like closing." Come on, ladies, that's foolish. Trenda was one of the most seemingly happy people. She was 49 and super talkative. She had one daughter that is around 7 or 8. She just got married a few months ago (she had be married previously, but I think she had been with this guy for a really long time...I don't really know).
Tonight after work everyone from work on Facebook is saying things like "We'll miss you, Trenda." And I'm wondering where they're getting their news. I mean, she probably won't make it, but as of close tonight we had no new updates.

I think my problem with things like this, other than the obvious problem with suicide, is how people react. There are people that are truly affected, and the people that say things just for the attention. They gravitate toward tragedy. I just don't understand that.

Anyway, when I got to work today I wasn't in a great mood, naturally. Customers' problems just seemed so stupid that I just ignored them for the most part when they told me how their hand held electronic games weren't working, or that the towels they bought aren't the right color for their bathroom. Actually, I think the guy that returned the towels thought I was strange because I was half crying when doing the return.

Tomorrow I am going to go to lunch with Amber. My birthday is Wednesday and she has class and work. I'm working 2-6 and had planned on going to dinner with my family (my side of the family, anyway) afterward. But, my mom has night classes. I think the plan now is to go to Miles' parents' house for dinner (chicken! mashed potatoes! noodles! cake!) I asked my mom if they're busy Thursday evening and she just responded a few minutes ago saying she has another night class. I don't know when I'll celebrate with them. Since I don't drink I don't think they know how to celebrate with me. They had a luau for my brother's friend David for his birthday (the backyard was totally decked out for that) and my mom cooked roast beef, noodles, and mashed potatoes then they all went out for Rayna's (David's girlfriend) birthday. That's the life of the child that has very little in common with the parents.

Yeah, now it's time for me to sleep.

I'm going to bed.